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- Detester Magazine
- Jun 15, 2022
- 1 min read
Written by: Newton Brophy
I led my first Mourner’s Kaddish
during a Shabbat dinner
in the third Spring.
My Aramaic was clumsy,
but the silence —
Over 2,000 people had died
between that Shabbos
and the previous,
and that’s just here.
The dinner was a poetry reading
with new friends
and no empty chairs
but the shroud of absence
was heavy over the table.
This morning I wake up
to my father bickering with his wife
about how her decorating taste
spreads like ivy through the house
leaving him no untouched wall.
He says we will not have people over,
and anyway,
it’s Covid.
My stepmother snaps back,
“You can’t use that as an excuse, Covid is over.”
I wonder how long
it would take me to say
Kaddish
six million times.
I hate
that someone has asked this question
before.
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